Them changes

[pavlovdog]

 Damn, a lot happens in a year doesn’t it?

I can’t remember the last time I was this excited for a new year. 2025 was probably the worst year of my life. Moving, my shitty jobs, my even shittier ex, losing my dog,  way too much binge eating and not accomplishing a single goal. Next year though? Sheesh.

2026 is my rebrand year. Losing weight, changing my appearance, completing my goals, and overall becoming unrecognizable. And if you doubt me then fuck you. I have a surprising amount of people who don’t believe in me, but the best feeling is proving them wrong. And the harder part is is not telling people your goals lol. It’s almost impossible for me to lock  in in peace. sometimes I can’t tell if any of my goals are personal or just me wanting to prove the people who doubted me wrong. Yk, being better than everyone :) it’s the only thing that’s ever motivated me the most. Yeah I’m looking at you K.

im gonna try and journal once a month again. A little update on whatever is going on in my life, go to the gym on every day off I have. Just some small things for the bigger picture. Maybe I’ll finally quit vaping. But tbh it doesn’t really bother me as much as it bothers other people that I do it. Not sure why. 

I’m also excited for my apartment!!!! I finally get it on the 5th! Happy about having my own space but terrified to live alone.  but hey I get my dog back :). Still need to go shopping for furniture n stuff, which is the fun part, but I’m also incredibly broke so that also fucking sucks. Missing those 2  weeks of work was hell on my paycheck but I feel good that I got to stay away from that place. Still thinking about finding something else later on in the year. Something  that doesn’t wanna make me kill myself every time I wake up. 

 Not much to update on until next month, this journal is all over the place. Is it possible to go through writers block in a journal about your life? Lol. See you next month.