Tummy aches

[pavlovdog]

 All my writings are the same. I wish I have more things to talk about. Or just more things going on in my life I’ll start with the negatives.

i never got to start my vyvanse yet. For some reason they’re not approved by my insurance? my dr says he’s gonna try and figure it out, or just give him a call next week if he forgets . Why ' would you forget? isn’t this your job? Sigh. I don’t think my Zoloft is working too well. Maybe I need to up my dose.  but it’s only been about of month of being on it, started out on 50 msg. I’m still so fuckijg depressed. I just got the motivation to clean my room which was abysmal. Though, most of the mess was my bfs. He can’t clean for shit, sometimes I wonder if he’s just lazy or depressed like me.   I also haven’t heard back yet from the job I wanted to start. I have to wait until there’s a spot opened up. They said after school starts and it already has so I’m wondering when. I don’t wanna be too pushy and keep asking. I’ve already asked twice. 

Also unfortunately , i have to wait until sometimes September to start my ged classes. But I’m seriously so excited. I really wanna go to college next year. I’m not sure yet what I even wanna major in, but I’m sure I’ll think about it within a year. Maybe film, maybe art. Maybe computer science. Choices choices. I’ve been drinking a lot of ramune and bloom prebiotic sodas. Common theme, strawberry and strawberry cream are my fav flavors of both.   I also get grocery shopping and got a shit ton of healthy food, also Mimi let me borrow her air fryer so I’ve been making good use of that. Been making a lot of potatoes. might some chicken Caesar salads for din din. Or burgers

Yk I kinda just had an epiphany. I tend to overeat a lot at night, I think it’s cause we usually eat dinner with Mimi at 4/5 pm so I’m always hungry before I go to bed at like  4 am, I have too much time to eat before then.  well now I can cook so I can cook better dinners. All of hers are filled with carbs and grease. Bleh. I need mine more filling but also healthy. 

oh also, I finally got to play over watch with my friends! we met sometime last year in the ow discord  and we’ve had a gc we occasionally talk and play in. But it’s usually just  3 out of the 4 of us but we actually got the whole gang last night. We all haven’t played in a while, hell it’s even been 4 months since anyone even said anything in the gc, but I had a lot of fun. Until my bf got mad cause apparently I “I don’t play anything with him”  I’m sorry I don’t want to play Minecraft rn. Anyway.

writing this with a tummy ache. I haven’t eaten anything yet, I only woke up about an hour ago, might go start on dinner here soon, I wanted to wait until at least 7 though, I also promised my bf I’d spend time with him and not play my games today, sigh, it’s hard. My ow fixation going hard rn. Also I when down to gold fucking  4 after being plat 5. That’s so fucking depressing. Still diamond 5 in open though but man it still sucks. Plat 3 on my alt tho on role queue So not too mad , dia 4 on dps on there as well. I’ve even playing a lot of Ashe in qp recently, she’s so fun but I’m also kinda cheeks. Might go find something to do.