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Jul. 17th, 2025 07:36 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
pavlovdognever too much to talk about, same old same old.
im depressed, whats new. got back on meds though! taking zoloft again. i reeeally need it to start working. myabe its the lack of job, or that theres nothing to do around here. i dont need a job. were doing fine. boyfriend is still working, its going really good, we havent argued in a while.
my birthday came and went. had plans but those went to shit. my sister was supposed to come down and bring me my gift and for me to spend time with them, but of course, they had better things to do. but i do get my gift hopefully this sunday when i go back and get the rest of my stuff, im getting an ipad :] so i can finally do digital art. yeah i still have my drawing tablet, but its barely working anymore and i dont have a solid desk to keep it around and overwall i just dont like it. so ipad it is.
4th of july STARTED out super bad but eventually it was fun, watched and wet off fireworks but his family, we smooched, fun times. anyway. i am looking for a job, not that its hard around heere. but the coffee shop i was wanting to wokr at isnt currently hiring, i have to wait until next month when all the kids go abck to school then theyll have anm opening. sigh, theres not much to do here and its so depressing. we live in the middle of nowhere and im really not an outside person
verry good news though! im finally plat in ow. about time. super fucking excited when that happened, about an hour ago. a friend helped me out , gonna keep trying to climb. ive been trying to play some other games. finished postal 2, started re revelations, thought, im not the biggest fan. also my game crashed before i could save and i rlly dont know if i want to replay the part i was at. i also started dmc, super fun but its not meant for pc and i have no idea where my controller is at, might buy a new one. even games are boring.
ive also been doing good on my health. somewhat, i still dont do my skincare as much as i should, but ive been eating better, lost about 10 lbs since being here, not as much as i wouldve wanted but hey, its still something. eating pretty good, but i binged for the past 2 days. bleh. im paying for a 'diet and journaling' app so maybe it will motivate me more. ill stop paying for it when i lose the weight hahahaha. soon, still want a skinny girl fall/winter. if i eat roughly 600 cals a day ill be 200lbs by halloween, and in the 160s by christmas. but if i only eat 400 cals ill be in the 180s but haloween and 150s by christmas. but thats not including fasting, which im gonna try to do a couple times a week. happyyyyyy.
im trying to convince my boyfriend to buy me a new pc on christmas so i can start streaming. things to look forward too. im also gonna make a 2026 goal list like i did with this year. though i did like NOTHING on that list. but now my bfs working and making good money, i can actually do stuff. i want to travel a bunch. i really wanna try and go to japan, which, will also motivate me to study. but im terrified of planes so im not sure, maybe ill go by boat if thats still a thing. only other problem is my dog, im super attached to her and want her everywhere i go, but im also terrified of taking her anywhere in case she runs awya or anything. i need therapy for my anxiety lol.
im depressed, whats new. got back on meds though! taking zoloft again. i reeeally need it to start working. myabe its the lack of job, or that theres nothing to do around here. i dont need a job. were doing fine. boyfriend is still working, its going really good, we havent argued in a while.
my birthday came and went. had plans but those went to shit. my sister was supposed to come down and bring me my gift and for me to spend time with them, but of course, they had better things to do. but i do get my gift hopefully this sunday when i go back and get the rest of my stuff, im getting an ipad :] so i can finally do digital art. yeah i still have my drawing tablet, but its barely working anymore and i dont have a solid desk to keep it around and overwall i just dont like it. so ipad it is.
4th of july STARTED out super bad but eventually it was fun, watched and wet off fireworks but his family, we smooched, fun times. anyway. i am looking for a job, not that its hard around heere. but the coffee shop i was wanting to wokr at isnt currently hiring, i have to wait until next month when all the kids go abck to school then theyll have anm opening. sigh, theres not much to do here and its so depressing. we live in the middle of nowhere and im really not an outside person
verry good news though! im finally plat in ow. about time. super fucking excited when that happened, about an hour ago. a friend helped me out , gonna keep trying to climb. ive been trying to play some other games. finished postal 2, started re revelations, thought, im not the biggest fan. also my game crashed before i could save and i rlly dont know if i want to replay the part i was at. i also started dmc, super fun but its not meant for pc and i have no idea where my controller is at, might buy a new one. even games are boring.
ive also been doing good on my health. somewhat, i still dont do my skincare as much as i should, but ive been eating better, lost about 10 lbs since being here, not as much as i wouldve wanted but hey, its still something. eating pretty good, but i binged for the past 2 days. bleh. im paying for a 'diet and journaling' app so maybe it will motivate me more. ill stop paying for it when i lose the weight hahahaha. soon, still want a skinny girl fall/winter. if i eat roughly 600 cals a day ill be 200lbs by halloween, and in the 160s by christmas. but if i only eat 400 cals ill be in the 180s but haloween and 150s by christmas. but thats not including fasting, which im gonna try to do a couple times a week. happyyyyyy.
im trying to convince my boyfriend to buy me a new pc on christmas so i can start streaming. things to look forward too. im also gonna make a 2026 goal list like i did with this year. though i did like NOTHING on that list. but now my bfs working and making good money, i can actually do stuff. i want to travel a bunch. i really wanna try and go to japan, which, will also motivate me to study. but im terrified of planes so im not sure, maybe ill go by boat if thats still a thing. only other problem is my dog, im super attached to her and want her everywhere i go, but im also terrified of taking her anywhere in case she runs awya or anything. i need therapy for my anxiety lol.
