What comes next

[pavlovdog]

finally moved, got here saturday morning. It was all hell. Driving 2 hours to get here, cramped in a truck with 5 people and my dog. Constantly worried about our belongings. Getting no sleep at ALL. Sigh. The place isn’t all that great, considering we’re living with his uncle and his wife. Both ex tweakers at that. Luckily, the place isn’t at dirty as the other one was. But it’s still not the best. cant complain all hat much.

my boyfriend finally got his big boy blue collar job. he started a few days ago , i think its going pretty good.  got my glasses, got my hard drive. whats next. i think were gonna, well. /im/ gonna look for apartments / houses.   I’ve finally talked him into a plan. He wants to build a house. Thank god that’s what he’s doing now lol. So at least he knows what he’s doing. But he’s too ambitious. If that’s even a con. He sets his mind on things and boy, he doesn’t change his mind. But. I had to talk with him about it. I told him it’s a good idea to live in the city.  which, he hates the city. He’s a country kinda guy and man. Am I the opposite. But, I told him it’s better to live in the city while he builds us a house. It’s a nice thought. 

I’m glad I get to leisure while he works. Only after a year of him not being able to work on account of his back and heart. Though, I know. He did quit some jobs just cause he didn’t like the people he worked with. Dude, does anybody? Like, I can’t even defend him on that. There’s bound to be at least one person you don’t like, doesn’t mean you have to leave your job about it . Sigh. But, I’m proud of him. He made a couple hundred  since he started Monday and he bought me some stuff :’) a plushie, a new sketchbook,  shirts, earphones. Yippeee

ive spent a good chunk of time playing overwatch. New season is out and man, still tryna rank. The day I hit plat is the day I celebrate. I’ve spend a good amount of time reading more fics. I miss the old days of doing it. Currently reading a fic I read 9 years ago, I come back to it every so often, that with having YouTube on. Just in my little corner of the couch, games, fics, snacks, YouTube. God, it’s fucking nice dude. I will admit, I still have some anxiety everyday cause I just always feel like I have to work. Not like, I HAVE to get a job. But like, it’s Taco Bell.  since I started I had the feeling of . “Damn I only have today and then I have to work again, ugh” that kind of feeling. I don’t feel pressured to get a job, but that anxiety of, “shit do I have to work today??!!” It sucks. I need meds again. I have a dentist appointment after my birthday. Which is the first so please wish me a happy birthday at midnight, thank you :p. Exciting stuff happening in my life. I’m happy. Genuinely. Still not in the place we live but I’m just. Overall, I feel good.