We move!

[pavlovdog]

Almost..finally :) we leave on the 22nd! And I’m super happy, unfortunately though, we didn’t get the apartment just yet. we’ll be staying with his family in due time, until we either get the apartment we were looking at or find a different one. The guy told me at least 6 months until we get in, but we never know. Sigh. Keeps our hopes up? I mean, that’s what I’ve been doing this whole time. I don’t give up. I never have in times like these. Well, that’s a lie. I HAVE given up, but no more. I was like this close to quitting my job today but I got over being upset and said yk what, I’m leaving in a week anyway it’s fine. That’s kinda what’s been getting me through the day lol. One day at a time man. One day at a time

i finally have extra money so I ordered me some glasses! They’re coming in hopefully soon, before we move. I’m really hoping. They are super cute and super cheap. I’ve been putting it off for months but finally say fuck it, just do it. And I did! Happy for myself :) I bought another skincare thing but I have yet to use it. I’ve been too lazy and depressed to do anything besides rot on TikTok and chai.which speaking of. My house m.d hyperfixation goes crazy. we all know it will only last a couple weeks though at best. I occasionally play Fortnite with my boyfriend. Can you believe im tired of overwatch? It just hasn’t been fun.. also omg, I got WiFi! Again, it’s not as fun as it sounded but eh.  did I mention me and my bf got matching tattoos?  its super cute :’) 

kinda on another note. My friend is buying me a 2tb hard drive so I can actually have more than one game at a time on my pc! I’m so happy. He’s genuinely like nice and cool asf. Obv my doesn’t like me and him being friends. Especially since he buys me a lot of stuff. But seriously don’t get it wrong. He knows I have a bf. And he hasn’t once asked for anything remotely romantic or sexual. And I know you’re still probably thinking “maybe he just hasn’t asked yet” blah blah blah. And if he does, he’s getting blocked. But he’s just a cool guy who makes hella money so like. I’m not complaining. I’m not sure what else yet I’m doing / getting for my birthday. I really want a fucking ipad but I know that won’t happen. I’ll just have to buy it myself. Hopefully next month. Or if anything, maybe on my bday if I have extra money. Happy :) my bfs family planned to take me out to eat, and then the lake. Which I really didn’t want to go to the lake, I’m fat and it would be awkward. I still haven’t lost much weight either :/ I lost 16lbs but gained about 7 of them back sigh. But it’s okay. Ik once we move, I’ll lose hella weight. Just based on pure anxiety lol. And plus it’s halfway in the middle of nowhere to where the closest store in about 8 miles away. Excideddd

anywho. Good stuff happening. Happy. Things work dude. They do. Manifest, stay optimistic. Try not to let your emotions get in the way :)