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pavlovdogi might have bipolar? maybe? i feel semi????? ish???? better since last time i journaled, and yeah, maybe i journal too much, its my life so fuck you. let me ramble my thoughts to the 2 people that view my journal maybe.
hung out with a friend today, it made me less depressed honestly, yk how bad i was struggling.\
borrowed some stuff, drank a matcha. walked a round a bunch, which, and im going to touch on this later, i need to wear my watch more. phone says 13k steps, but idk how accurate it is. hell, how accurate even is an apple watch. other than that had a lot of fun. but it did come with someone of a downside, maybe an upside? i realized how unhappy i am with myself. like. genuinely unhappy. like holy shit i need to starve myself so i look better kind of unhappy. and thats exactly what im going to do.
aaaaaaanyway.
still not plat in overwatch, sigh. got obsessed with class of 09, fuck i love it sm. i need friends to talk to about the shit that im in. class of 09, resident evil...uh, yeah thats about it. trying to get into cod, and i hate to sound basic. but im rlly only in it for ghost. i need fandoms but nothing is interesting :[. fuck it, ill try and find something.
still no news about moving yet, and defitnatly still no news about the "new job" but i think i actually given up on it. actually this time. im set on moving, so he can work finally. i can get me a lil part time. do schooling in the other free time ill have. and i say this every year, but fuck it. this year is MINE, mine and mine alone, this is the year we lock in. gonna get serious about coding, prob start drawing and posting my art again on insta. i need followers, i want to be famous.
anyway, its been 7 seconds so go kill yourself
hung out with a friend today, it made me less depressed honestly, yk how bad i was struggling.\
borrowed some stuff, drank a matcha. walked a round a bunch, which, and im going to touch on this later, i need to wear my watch more. phone says 13k steps, but idk how accurate it is. hell, how accurate even is an apple watch. other than that had a lot of fun. but it did come with someone of a downside, maybe an upside? i realized how unhappy i am with myself. like. genuinely unhappy. like holy shit i need to starve myself so i look better kind of unhappy. and thats exactly what im going to do.
aaaaaaanyway.
still not plat in overwatch, sigh. got obsessed with class of 09, fuck i love it sm. i need friends to talk to about the shit that im in. class of 09, resident evil...uh, yeah thats about it. trying to get into cod, and i hate to sound basic. but im rlly only in it for ghost. i need fandoms but nothing is interesting :[. fuck it, ill try and find something.
still no news about moving yet, and defitnatly still no news about the "new job" but i think i actually given up on it. actually this time. im set on moving, so he can work finally. i can get me a lil part time. do schooling in the other free time ill have. and i say this every year, but fuck it. this year is MINE, mine and mine alone, this is the year we lock in. gonna get serious about coding, prob start drawing and posting my art again on insta. i need followers, i want to be famous.
anyway, its been 7 seconds so go kill yourself
